Practice = New Results

While looking at the floor in my bedroom last week and all of the clothes that had accumulated, I asked myself, "How did I get here, again?"  I made the determination a few months ago to get and keep my house in order and did...for awhile.  Then, it hit me...it's a mirror for life.  Here's the thing, I often get that "got it", you know?  I have epiphanies and whatnot but somehow lose the excitement of the realization after a few weeks/months.  What really makes all the difference is keeping up the practice of implementing said epiphany or else I'll find myself with crap all over the floor even though there are 2 hampers for sorting laundry in the closet.  lol  Additionally, I must practice envisioning my goals everyday without fail.  If I don't, I end up sliding back into seeing life only as it is currently and wondering why nothing has changed.  I have to experience the joy of where I'm going everyday in order to make it come into existence.  If I don't constantly see and feel myself on the set/in that meeting/in that relationship how will it come about?  How will I be able to notice the intuitive nudges that lead me on that path if I'm not currently connected to the vision?

My friend Julia previously invited me to attend a networking soiree she was throwing in Santa Monica last night but I ended up getting off of work later than I thought.  I wanted to just go home and sit in a bath and practice more imagining.  Instead, because my intuition told me I was supposed to have a conversation there, I went.  I ended up meeting five amazing young women and had incredible conversations.  Actually, the second woman I met after chatting for a bit asked what I did and I told her I was developing my reel as a Director.  She proceeds to tell me immediately that "We need to talk..." and that she has people who are looking for female Directors.  Fan-f'ing-tastic!  Everything is meant and I know for sure that because I keep putting my goals in the forefront of my mind in every aspect of everyday I'm pulling their actualization in so fast.  Man, I'm telling you I am paying bills and living off of my passion a.s.a.p. 

It's like in The Four Agreements by Don Miguel Ruiz, I have to make a new habit or new agreement.  In order to do that I have to break the practice of the old which equals the old way of living, loving, learning and the only way to truly do that is to institute a new agreement.  I have to decide, for one, and hold fast to that decision, secondly, to really see a change.  If I just make a decision but don't put any power (i.e. feeling or action) behind it I might as well just keep the old way because I really don't believe in what I want.  I'm just making random wishes.  Everyday, my belief grows stronger.  I see myself there now, and I mean right now.  The lil inner hater is still lurking about but she's becoming miniscule with every prayer, renewed determination and "chance" occurrence.  Loving life :)

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