Expression is a necessity...

 

"Express Yourself"

Expression is a necessity.  And I'll be so bold as to state that I believe that goes for everyone.  When I create anything I feel a sense of buoyancy and a feeling of release.  I feel calmer, at ease, in tune.  It makes me think about how some people are incredibly angry or try to pick fights blah blah blah.  I think it really boils down to a lack of an outlet.  How to do you let it all go?  For some it's dancing or setting choreography.  For others it's painting, tapping into a character, writing a poem, journal entry, blog or script.  While reading "Stealing Fire from the Gods" I came across a section about metaphors.  "Metaphor literally means 'to carry over' to substitute one thing for another."  What it is in stories or our dreams is raw energy finding it's expression in readily available images that allow us to relate and understand.  This is why something is poignant or touching or freeing.  It's because our spirit's wisdom sees that truth and has a picture to liken itself to/with.  That's what I believe expression is really about.

Expression: something that manifests, embodies or symbolizes something else.  A mode, means or use of significant representation or symbolism.

Our innate truths spring forward in a myriad of ways to allow us to touch each other and grow immensely.  When we're so overcome with joy, pain, love, sadness, je ne sais quoi...we are driven, propelled even, to express it somehow.  I think that a lot of people think that only "artists" are allowed to express themselves.  Thinking that being "artsy" gives one more leverage to share.  The real is that it's all, everything thing in life, is there for the taking or better yet the usage.  Like my friend Melinda realized about her photography, you don't have to think about something as a money maker in order to enjoy it.  Who cares if you're "good" at it.  Does it fulfill that yearning?  Does it make you feel lighter?  Happier?  

When we are free...Rather, when we allow our inspiration to come out we are becoming free.  Even if for a millisec...in that time, in that space we allow ourselves to be almost suspended in air.  We are free from judgment, mainly our own.  I think we are able to be in touch with the greater truth which lies within us all.  I live for that feeling...it's the most amazing high.

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That Heat aka The Challenge

What I'm reading: "Stealing Fire From the Gods" - James Bonnet

"If you go through it, you come through it." - James Bonnet

What I have been afraid of for the longest were my feelings.  I hated the fact that they are so intense, that I am soooo sensitive, that you can see them all over my face.  I mean that figuratively and literally.  My face turns red if I'm happy, sad or pissed.  I have spent so many years trying to hide and disguise them that it is only fitting that at this stage of my life and my career I am forced to not only deal with them but welcome them back to the forefront of everything I do.  I am working on several pieces and as I've been doing my research EVERY book tells me to listen to how I feel.  Pay attention to a negative feeling when writing because it tells you something isn't working.  Go toward that feeling, understand it and you'll come out all the better for it because your piece will be better because it the truest representation of what you want to convey.  Damn.  Really?  So, all of that crap I didn't want to deal with I have to look at head on because as I stated in "...Narcissistic", understanding me makes me better ALL the way around.

The writers, especially Bonnet, speak about really paying attention to our dreams.  Bonnet likens them to our own personal Rumpelstiltskin.  Rumpelstiltskin worked while the maiden was sleeping to make the hay into spun gold.  Our dreams are our subconscious (Rumpelstiltskin) working on our conscious problems (hay) to create solutions (gold) for us while we rest.  Fresh, right?  Sometimes I'll think that an entire idea isn't good enough because of that negative or "eh" feeling.  All it truly takes, though, is a little reworking most time to get to that "greatness" stage.  Sometimes I may have to scrap an entire piece and start again but I don't have to throw out the initial feeling.  Kind of like someone who creates music or paints.  You keep the heartbeat of the music or the color that you began with because that's the basis but the surrounding colors on the canvas or accompanying rhythms need to change.  A piece I was working on was feeling dead in the water because I couldn't see where my characters were going to or coming from after a particular scene.  I now realize that my first inspiration was the climax, I have to create the beginning for them so they'll get to that stage.  Mozeltoff!

"If you can't stand the heat stay out of the kitchen."- someone a long time ago

Addressing that "heat" is what makes us great.  Looking into the face of a challenge makes us actually face ourselves.  "I thought I was strong but now after going through (fill in the blank), I know I'm much stronger and better than before."  The part of me that I thought was the weakest is actually my greatest attribute.  It's how I connect with people and will get better at telling stories.  Sweet.

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