I almost wanted to cry...or shout...or scream....to someone, anyone...And when I got the news that the music video I was supposed to Direct was canceled, I was in the worst wall to wall traffic that I had ever seen on main and side streets in all of LA. Having to sit in that traffic forced me to really think about what this meant to my life. The artist was cool. He had other things that he had to devote his time to so, although he really wanted to do the video he was ok because he had other things he'd done to help propel himself forward. After a few minutes and I am proud to say it was only a few, I was able to see how fortunate I was to be where I was. I was able to get a place here to stay when I first moved out, my current apartment was all but handed over to me, I was gifted a car after almost 2 years of renting cars to work, I never had to get a "real" job.... My life out here hasn't been easy, by any means, all the same...if I was supposed to move back to Atlanta, I would have done so by now. I haven't gotten every single thing that I've wanted, per se, but every single thing that I needed. And like that traffic forced me to take time to think, not being able to do that video forced me to take a sec to see clearly. I have no idea what the silver lining is just yet, although I'm sure it will become apparent soon enough. I am basking in the knowledge that I was protected.
There is a daily encouragement that I read that states, to paraphrase, every prayer will be answered the key is to keep your focus on your goal. Even if it takes time, use that time to reflect on yourself and see what else, what more you could be and do. When it does come to fruition it will be in a form greater than you had ever hoped. So, that's where I am. I decided that I had to make sure I continued to beat on my craft and make myself the best that I can be. Last night I put in more pages on my screenplay and that made me feel like a winner. Maybe I have to soley put out my own works? I am working on another short short with Maya & Sakinah. Shak has a fantastic idea I cannot discuss for fear of some penalty worse than death. lol So things are definitely coming up...this is all an opportunity as opposed to an obstacle.
When I was driving and noticed the streets were just blocked off and there wasn't an accident (thankfully) I knew something was up. Come to find out, the traffic that put our entire city on pause last night was President Obama coming to visit. Can't be mad at that. Welcome to LA, Mr. President, especially because it was for a fundraiser. Well, that traffic was there to protect him and I think this pause was given to me to protect me. Thank you, Universe, 'preciate it. :)
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I like that, "this pause was given to me to protect me". WOW! That's something that's very difficult to think about in the moment. And I know it's hard to let go of yet another project. But all this is just building character. I feel at times like I've been grindin' for so long that not much is left but a polished surface. LOL :) Don't worry though, that means we're already shining!
ReplyDeletethanks, pal :) i really appreciate the acknowledgment. you're so right. we already know what we know (& don't know lol), where we're going and who we are.... the rest of the world just has yet to see it. until then...happily #grinding
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