Working....for Someone Else's ish

And as Confucius may have said: do something you love, and you will never have to work a day in your life.

posted by Paulo Coelho via twitter 8/20/09 

Good morn.. If you don't have big dreams and goals you'll end up working reeeally hard for someone who does. :)
God is Love
Rev Run posted via Global Grind 8/26/09 

Last week I was speaking with my mom because we finally did our major email blast for the site.  She was telling me how inspired she was.  Wow.  It makes me feel awesome when I know I'm doing something that my mother can get behind.  I don't do things for her approval but I can't get around or past that warm feeling I get when she tells me she's proud of me.  She  follows this comment by stating, "I'm going to utilize your site for what it's for...To Put Myself On."  FRESH.  I was truly blown away, my MOM is going to "Put [herself] On"?  Hey, that's what it's all about.

I started to think about how fortunate I really am, you know?  I mean, I was raised to go after my passions.  To make a life based upon going after my dreams.  It wasn't until I was about to graduate from high school that I realized what a rarity that was.  Quite a few of my friend's parents did not support them in their life's choice for a career.  Instead their parents put A LOT of pressure on them to do what they wanted as opposed to what my friends wanted for their career.  This was completely mind blowing to me. You mean your MOM doesn't support you?!  What the hell?!  That's what they're there for.  To guide you and lead you, yes.  But ultimately to care for and support your dreams.  My house ended up turning into somewhat of a safehouse for runaway dreamers....It still is today.  lol  Please don't get it twisted...I've had PLENTY of run ins with my mom regarding disagreeing over curfews, some friend choices, I took her for granted when I was younger blah blah blah.  All of that is natural.  The real is that my mother supported me in what I wanted to do, always.  That's partially why I'm so determined to make it happen.  Because I don't want her support to be in vain.  She and I don't speak everyday or even every week.  We don't have to because she knows I'm grinding and she has her own life.  lol  

Anyhoo... I think about people who hate their lives, like wake up soooo unhappy because they're helping someone else make their dreams pop off and it has nothing to do with what they are truly passionate about.  Those are the people who you encounter on the daily and are pissed off ALL the time.  I felt myself starting to get into that rut.  You know the one... you've taken on a job or a position to help you get somewhere and all the sudden time is passing and you still don't feel any closer to achieving your goals.  I started to feel so irritated all of the time.  I would take out my frustration on people around me and then it hit me... I'm not doing IT.  This is not something I love, I am going against the very grain of my being.  Wouldn't you be pissed if you were helping to build someone else's company from the ground up for YEARS and you still had that idea that you never fleshed out hanging out in your basement?  Now this is not to say that everyone has to be CEO.  Even if your passion is to be a part of building up something let it be something that you L-O-V-E.  I mean, seriously, life is to be enjoyed and lived to the fullest.  Without maxing out our potentials and fulfilling our hearts desires what is really the point of existing?  Time out for all the bull***t.  I made a decision, it's time to get. it. in.

100.

Bright

P.S. had a great convo with a possible cinematographer last night for my upcoming shoot.  so juiced...everyday making it happen step by step.  much thanks to Del for thinking of me.  :)